Day 18

Cereal = meal of champions.

At church today the message was about showing love to everyone in your life, even the 'difficult' people...and that really spoke to me. Sometimes you have to just 'kill them with kindness' as they say! I haven't been doing a very good job of that, but I am going to try to work on it.

I'm feeling much better about life now. I think last week was just rough because of everything going on and happening at once, but now that I've had a few days to let it set in that yes, Wayland really is that ridiculous, and yes, they really are doing this....I'm okay. Yeah it annoys me and yeah I don't know what will happen, but everything will be okay. Hopefully things work out well, but if not...at least we know we gave it all we had! We are definitely learning patience, that's for sure...not sure I like it though LoL

Plus I'm working on my jealousy. One of the things I was struggling with was the fact that EVERYONE is pregnant besides me it seems, and I am so ready to have a baby! But it's just not the right time for us and I know that...but you know, sometimes it just gets me down. It's hard when Josh and I just do NOT agree on this. He says, 3-5 more years. I say...now. We compromised and said we'll wait til he graduates and see what jobs come along and see what happens and then think about it some more...and I'm learning to be okay with that. I just feel like I have no purpose in life right now, and I'm stuck at a job I hate and not really living for anything. I'm so ready to be a Mom and have someone rely on me and need me and all that fun stuff...not now, but someday, it will be my turn. Hopefully before I'm too old.

Okay wellllllll the hubby is headed to bed so I guess I will too. Otherwise I miss out on some much needed cuddling time because he falls asleep too fast! LoL

Happy Valentine's Day <3>